i've been getting nightmares. about the same few people, and the same few things. i can't believe my last paper is tomorrow, im not even the least bit prepared. i hate long breaks in betweens. and can you believe that im always thinking what my results are gonna be, and then i start to get anxious, paranoid, upset, sad, worried.. when like results are only gonna be in like what, 4 months. im really expecting the worst. you guys cannot imagine how bad i screwed up my papers.
and throughout my whole JC life, i have made so many wrong decisions and i get even more agitated when i start to regret. i regret a hell lot of things. and i bet you when i get back my results i will regret a heck lot more.
but really, what's the point in thinking about all these. it's not to my benefit nor will it improve the situation in anyway. but i can't help it. i really cant.
oh yea now that exams are gonna be over i will have all the time in the world and normally that means i get all emotional (esp since it's gonna be christmas) because my mind can wander through everything and anything so beware. he he. and then all my blog posts will become so damn greyyyyyyy and downcasttttttt and melancholic i bet it can be those kinda websites for the suicidal. the only thing i have to add is the different methods how to go about doing it. ok im joking.
anw, happy birthday steffi. you've been great dear. we're gonna get so sick of each other like soon because i bet i'll be meeting you every other day during december and not only that we're gonna be working together for like 3 months next year. but really, thank god for you. im so glad that you're here. have a great birthday and i'll see you tomorrow at your pardee pardee.
oh yea and michhhh. please stay away from mosquitos okay. find out how your brother got his dengue and stay away from the places. take care of yourself dear . well i cant wait to see you tomorrow too.